Background:
Single parent
Teacher
Lapband
WOW Lock/Mage
Today:
I dread work. My students are floating- waiting for release.
I dream about my daughter- her sweetness, intelligence, humor, innocence.
I play WOW- all the time.
I don't earn enough to pay all of my bills.
My house is a disaster.
Tomorrow:
In two weeks I start summer break. My daughter and I will have six weeks of 24/7 time together; then she will go to her Dad's for four weeks. If I don't change our lives this summer I will lose her. She will ask to go back to her Dad's. Why? Because I am a bad mom. I can't keep a clean house. I don't spend quality time with her. We spend most hours staring at the computer playing games. I don't give her the time she deserves.
We have to change.
Normally I would come up with a plan, go buy everything I think I will need to succeed at the plan... and then fail. I can't do that anymore. I am broke. My wages are being garnished so much that I am considering go to shelters for free food.
So what am I going to do???
My Goal:
Create and stick to a budget
Spend a minimal amount of money for nutricious healthy food that will be homemade.
Use our new bikes daily- riding at least 60 minutes a day.
Play way less WOW--- four hours a day OR LESS.
My Plan:
I will post here daily... keeping track of money spent (to stay on budget), keeping track of time spent with and activities done with my daughter, keeping track of what we eat, keeping track of how much time spent playing on the computer... but most of all--- documenting my emotions.
Speaking of emotions. Why do I feel the need to have someone with me, talking to me, all the time. Why cant I be comfortable in my own skin... alone? Is it my insecurities that make me push people I love away?
Why you may ask... why am I sharing this with the world. Well, I have searched for the answers, I have searched for a summer plan, and I cant find answers anywhere. Maybe my journey to find answers will help others out there... other odd people like me.
